Some of you have noticed that I came back in March and on my blog I am still in Myanmar (this makes me happy, because at least some of you are paying attention). My neglect doesn't come from laziness, it is caused by some recent events in my life and this is what's happening.
Going back from a trip of your life, from the sand, the sun and palm trees is never easy. It is even harder when you and your husband of 10 years decide to get a divorce.
Yes, my lovlies, after such a long time we need to say good - bye to each other. Unfortunately, our roads are going in different directions. For a bit I was shocked and sad. I went through a stage, which is normal for anyone who has just split up. I was in mourning. We went through a lot together. We came to the UK without much money, we struggled to settle in, we supported each other at every step of the way. And then...we started to drift apart. I'm not going to go into details. I will just tell you that sometimes when you have different priorities in life you just can't agree.
A split up after such a long time is never easy. You find yourself lonely and scared of the future, you can't imagine living by yourself, you can't even think about having someone else you could love in the same way. I've gone through all this, and I'm still finding hard to cope with every day life. But, you know what? I'm beginning to feel positive about the future. I know that whatever happens I will be fine and I will find my happiness. This is the time when I can make my own decision, when I can be selfish and don't care about anyone else, but me. I can finally make my dreams come true and can go away for a very long time, without feeling guilty. This is my time!
Writing gives me a little time for myself and distracts me from every day problems. Maybe now, I can spend more time doing what I love and develop my skills. Who knows what happens. I might become a famous writer, I might live in a remote village somewhere in Asia, or go to Australia and learn how to surf (the last one is the least possible, considering my physical abilities).
At the moment I am planning to go away again at the end of the year, work somewhere, meet other travelers and enjoy the time in the sun.
For the time being I promise I will update the blog as often as I can.